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30 March 2011 @ 11:45 pm
FIC: When Logic and Proportion  

TItle: When Logic and Proportion
Prompt:  "Figuring out you and me is like doing a love autopsy; they could operate all day long and never figure out what went wrong".
Rating:  PG13 for some mildly disturbing imagery and spoiler (highlight to read):  character death
Warning:  Mild spoilers for Invincible Iron Man #502.  My spin on events to come.  This is pretty firmly set in comicsverse -- with what I have read and what I have cobbled together through the magic of the internet -- still should be fairly friendly to all fans.


Yinsen asked me, back in the cave, if I had anyone waiting for me back home. I told him I didn’t, but I knew it was a lie the moment I said it. There was you, there was always you. I had nightmares after that, that they had kidnapped you – that you had somehow, some way found me in the middle of the desert and tried to rescue me only to wind up captured instead. It wasn’t like you hadn’t accomplished greater feats when I gave you some impossible task so I could slip the leash of your BlackBerry for a few hours.

When I got back home I should have told you how I felt about you – that your face was one of the few comforts I had in that hell hole – knowing I couldn’t let those bastards win because they wanted to destroy a world that you lived in.

I knew you loved me, even if I did seem oblivious… Only there was the chest plate, the whole secret superhero thing, and… realizing that it wasn’t just those terrorists that were a threat to you – that I was a threat to you… a threat to the chance of you ever getting to live a normal life. Even if I had given up the Iron Man, which would be as impossible as choosing not to breathe, being Tony Stark wasn’t much safer.

I should have let you go, back then, but I was selfish… I wanted to protect you, but I couldn’t bear to be apart from you. I couldn’t live without you. I’d never been more relieved and distraught when you and Happy finally made a go of it. Happy was… a great man, a better man than I could ever be and if I had to lose you to someone, I knew, I could find no one more deserving of you.  

You still tried to reach me though – no matter how many other not-quite-as-beautiful women I tried to hide myself behind.   I saw you watching through your cool, professional, married mask and god knows I was tempted… because I’m that sort of terrible person – the bastard who sleeps with his friend’s wife, the loser who imagines that his secretary  is hot for him, the son of a bitch who willfully endangers someone for a moment of pleasure.

Between fighting the temptation of you and the seduction of a good single malt scotch, there were days I thought I would never make it, that I would be pulled into one – or worse bothof those forbidden territories and then everything would go to hell. The exhaustion is nearly overwhelming. It was only the knowledge that you were still safer as you were then you would be if anyone were to know that the man of Iron had a heart, and who he had given that heart to.

Only it wasn’t true, was it? I am so so sorry… for everything that my existence has done to your life… I used to wish, sometimes, that I had died in that godforsaken cave – god knows your life would have been better for it. Just you, Happy and your three children… the all-American family. If only…

There were good times too, though, weren’t they? How else can I explain why you came back to me after the kidnapping, after the miscarriage, after…Happy, after having a building dropped on you, after watching me erase my brain… Why else would you have come back after all of that?

Maybe you’re as crazy as I feel most days.

Why would you be here if you didn’t love me?

“Octavius told me it would be someone that I would never suspect,” A watery laugh burbles from his lips as he tosses his smashed helmet aside carelessly, stumbling as he makes his way across the remains of the building. “And he was right – well almost, he did get one thing wrong – but thinking creatively was always his weakness,” He lets out another bark of mad laughter as he collapses to his knees at his opponent’s side. 

He’d checked the sensors in the helmet before he discarded it, knows that there isn’t much time left, but he has so much he needs to say that it seems impossible. He’s fighting his own exhaustion and internal bleeding just to get this far – the adrenaline has already petered out and his body is screaming at him to sleep –

“Otto kept referring to the spy as a ‘he’… and that was his fatal – our fatal – error, wasn’t it?” His muscles protest, even with the armor actually doing all the heavy lifting as he pulls the metal-plated torso into his lap. “Never thought it would be you, not in a million years…,” Tears burn in his eyes and he stamps them down mercilessly as the ghost of his father, even after all of these years, hisses how weak and stupid he is, getting taken out by a ‘simple woman’…

Pepper Potts had never been simple.

“Why,” He asks, locking gazes with the green-eyed woman glaring up at him hatefully, her gaze cold enough to freeze the marrow of his bones.

She turns her head to the side and spits a dark clot of blood, leaving it dripping on his thigh before she looks up at him again with that fierce gaze that drew him to her all those years ago as she proved that he had made a mistake in the books – that for the first time in his life, his math was wrong.

“You… destroy everything, … Tony,” She gasps, her words labored as bloody foam creeps out the corner of her lips, a ghastly contrast between her pale skin and copper hair. “Everything you touch… the armor, your friends… your lovers… the world – you turn to ashes… I couldn’t let you do it anymore.”

Despair swallows him whole, easily conceding to her logic – How many had died because – for – this armor? Then there was Steve, and Happy – only Happy wouldn’t be getting a convenient resurrection this time around – and what about that machine?  Then there were Janice and Rumiko…

“…I know,” he croaks out in a small voice, tears overwhelming him, dripping onto her face.

“Gotcha,” She says with a flare of pride as her arms lock behind his back, chaining herself to him. Her RT flashes menacingly and he doesn’t need his doctorate in engineering to tell him that it’s in the final stages of overload.

“I know,” He can’t help smirking at her shock, “Futurist, remember?”

He manages to break the hold she has, even as she fights him every inch with the last of her strength. Her RT whines alarmingly, reaching critical mass as he places her arms around his neck. She looks surprised and so he kisses her, lowering his own RT as far as he can so he can get in close enough to taste the blood on her lips.

“Love you, Pepper,” He finally gets to say out loud.

“I know,” She replies, her green eyes – as calm as jade – focused on him as she leans towards him –

There is blinding white, then darkness, and he knows he can finally sleep.


When logic and proportion ,
Have fallen sloppy dead,
-- White Rabbit, Jefferson Airplane


NekoReinneptunesubmerge on April 1st, 2011 02:45 am (UTC)
It....really, really bothered me when I read it. I can safely say that Tony's plan to save himself and his video on the subject was the only time I have ever been sincerely ANGRY at a fictional character. I had to put the books down and take a step back for a few days. I felt it wreaked of manipulation and you know what? He should have TOLD THEM FROM THE BEGINNING that he had this backdoor. Especially since in the end, so much of it came down to everyone being exactly where he needed them to be. If he was going to trust Pepper with a suit and trust Maria with getting the drive, he should have trusted them with the plan.

Oh, I won't deny that Happy's situation was different. It's just...comics. There ain't a whole hell of a lot that Tony Stark or Reed Richards can't fix. If Pepper had allowed them to work on it, we'd be in a very different situation. Happy was killed off solely for the sake of killing him off and I really wish it had been done in a way where I could honestly believe that just being a comic character could not have saved him.

I can't imagine for a second that Pepper would actually be the spy. Matt Fraction started writing Pepper when he realized he might have a daughter someday, because he recognizes that comics have not treated women well, and he wants her to be proud of him for having a great female hero that she can look up to. (And he does, now, have a daughter.) Pepper is his heroic character and he talks a lot in interviews about her hero's journey and how she follows the same path as Tony. I seriously wonder if when he leaves IIM, if he'll take Pepper with him to his next project. Had The Order continued, she would have become Rescue in that book. Her story moved books with him. I think she's clearly the best choice for the spy because no one would ever think it could actually be her, but it's probably one of the new guys. In addition to the damage she could deal just due to her knowledge and what she is trusted with, Pepper also has an advantage in that Tony would probably not fight back. Given the way he treats his other villain former lovers, I'd have to question if he'd even work that hard to just immobilize her. But then from there, I have to ask--how much control does he have over her suit? Because it's him, I'd wager a lot. If you look at when she turned off her RT rig in the fight against Detroit Steel, Tony remote accessed it to turn it back on again. If Pepper turned on him, he could probably shut down her suit and/or RT just by thinking about it.

This is such an interesting road to go down. So many variables.

I have an entire long box of just Iron Man and an additional 22 book collections. By this point, I'm pretty convinced they are into each other.
MostePotentePotionsmostepotente on April 1st, 2011 03:29 am (UTC)
True, in a realistic world Tony should have told them that there was a backdoor -- but not letting anyone see the whole plan has been a character fault of Tony's that is currently being heavily explored in Avengers (and Steve, Tony's right, it's totally all about you on this one babe). It's the control freak in him, and a tendency that, from what I can see, has been nutured by the arc of his story thus far.

Also, the more people who know there is a back door, means the more people who can tell Osborne that there is a way to recover the information -- admittedly Tony had a pretty specific set up as to how it could be done that Osborne could not have accessed; however, Osborne is nothing if not resourceful.

I did not realize that was how Fraction saw Pepper -- I'll admit her character has come a long long way from the early days (the one where Happy goes to Ireland because Tony wouldn't let him pilot the submarine, even though it turns out he probably would've died if he had and Pepper is all mad at him, even though he would have died and blah blahblah it was so much wtf-hilarious). I'd be interested to see where he would take her... (and yeah, never in a million years would she actually be the spy. Also, sometimes I secretly wish that Tony would go supervillain for reals though, not just temporary insanity by mind control/alcohol/magic/skrulls).

I am a complete Tony Stark apologist...no lie.
NekoReinneptunesubmerge on April 1st, 2011 03:51 am (UTC)
He's a control freak, pure and simple. And sometimes it bites him in the ass.

I would cry forever if Tony went supervillain. He is my baby and I love him. I refuse to go anywhere near the Crossing or Civil War. When Civil War was coming out, I used to stand at the counter of my comic shop and try to convince people not to buy it. (Don't ask me why this was tolerated by the store. Possibly because I was never actually successful. And I was dating one of the guys who worked there at the time, and he agreed with me.)
MostePotentePotionsmostepotente on April 1st, 2011 04:00 am (UTC)
From what I read of Civil War (admittedly from the very biased end of the Iron Man comics) I can say that I think Tony had some very good points. There are a lot of good reasons to have some sort of registration process (after all, my neighbor when she was 10 got her black belt in karate and had to register her hands with the police department). I mean, at least if they're registered and get to be on some sort of payroll you get the sweet bennies and health insurance -- something I think superheros without super healing powers might find useful.
Even if you didn't want to get paid for it, registering as a volunteer still lets there be accountability for your actions.

Part of the problem is that in the Marvel universe you have the drama of anti-mutant legislation and since a lot of superheroes would also be considered mutants there's a good reason for them to be wary of any legislation.

All in all, it was a good idea with a terrible execution -- not including the nether prison and cloning Thor wtf.
NekoReinneptunesubmerge on April 1st, 2011 04:24 am (UTC)
The idea of registration itself makes sense. In the real world, all these heroes who take justice into their own hands would be criminals. However:
1) Vigilante-ism is a staple of the genre, unlikely to change whole scale.
2) Characters were hugely OOC to facilitate their place in the story. Tony as a rule-enforcer. Tigra betraying a boatload of her nearest and dearest. She-Hulk seemingly forgetting anything about laws.
3) THE SHIT THEY PULLED, OMG. Thor clone, negative zone prison, inciting a war against Atlantis, hiring villains to make them look good and/or hunt heroes.
4) Steve standing for What is Right over Public Opinion and then surrendering when the public didn't like him anymore.
5) That the mutants, who have had the registration storyline about a billion times, somehow just magically stayed out of it, as if it didn't affect them.
6) No one ever defined what, exactly, registration would entail.
7) No one ever defining who registered and who didn't! Whether or not the Young Avengers registered changed constantly once the dust cleared.

I'm gonna stop now, but I could go on. Forever.
MostePotentePotionsmostepotente on April 1st, 2011 04:36 am (UTC)
Re: Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant
True facts. I'm not saying the arc didn't have huge massive issues. (Also, dude, Steve, if you're all about the American way, shouldn't you be fighting it through the opportunities granted to you through the American legal system wtf gdammit).

Actually, that tends to be my one regret about comics is that not very many choose devote a lot of time to digging into the issues a bit deeper... or at least developing it *gives Watchmen a forlorn glance*...

Right now I'm just blown about how godawful this episode of Grey's Anatomy is. I don't even know how to explain how god awful this is... and it's a *musical*. I am genetically predisposed like them and this is terrible.

So I guess there are worse things that could happen in comics. At least Tony can't sing about his pathos using pop standards.
NekoReinneptunesubmerge on April 1st, 2011 09:00 pm (UTC)
Re: Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant
Tony would sing about his pathos via 80's metal!

And I just want to say that I'm sorry for hijacking your fanfic post to TL;DR about comics forever. I have no self control when it comes to this stuff.
MostePotentePotionsmostepotente on April 2nd, 2011 03:21 am (UTC)
Re: Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant
See, at least 80s pathos would be entertaining... *is now visualizing Tony's escape from Vietghanistan set to "Running in the Jungle"*

Oh and I totally don't mind... I love talking about comics and I rarely get to do so...
NekoReinneptunesubmerge on April 2nd, 2011 02:54 pm (UTC)
Re: Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant
Same. Or at least, I rarely get to talk about comics with people that read the same books as I do.